It's friggin tiring to be doing this everyday.
I think I need a break from NS.
:(
I don't have the mood or energy to do anything else already.

Anyways, going out on sat and sun.
Maybe next week too.
I really miss you guys.

Things are really getting really BUSY at work today.
Was so tired that I fell asleep at 3 plus just sitting there.
Tomorrows gonna be BUSY again with all the vetting that's going on in the afternoon.
My Saturday's gonna be taken up as well.
Sigh.
Why can't Singaporeans take a chill pill and just relax for a moment?
BUSY and stressed lives will only lead to strained relationships.
Doesn't anyone see the trend nowadays?
In the past, meeting a friend who mattered would take both of you setting a time and place beforehand and trusting each other not to be late when the day comes.
Nowadays, people send each other texts as forms of greetings, rarely bothering to know about each others' lives.
They give a simple call/text to say they'll be late or even cancel their dates.
Doesn't anyone see how strained human ties are?
There's a reason why families aren't so close as before.
BUSY.
Parents are too BUSY with work.
Kids grow up accustomed to not having parents in their lives, homes simply places to sleep at night.
Everything boils down to priorities in life.
It depends on what you place first.

Some people place studies first, scoring distinctions and whatnots, neglecting their social lives. In the end, they realised what they have left is but a piece of paper but no one to share their joy with.
There are so many other things to talk about, but I'm tired.
Everyone's BUSY.
It just depends on how you want to spend your time;
and whether it's gonna be spent wisely or not, everyone's got 24 hours.

A total of 6 BUSYs in my post. Don't bother counting. It takes up 6 seconds of your 24 hours.
Spend it doing something else you prioritise instead.

- - -

But in the end, I want to thank the people who put friendship a little higher up in their priority list, people who bother to hang around and catch up, people who go out just to see each other.
If you're reading this, you've probably spent about a minute or so reading about my life.
Thanks.
It matters to me that you've read.

[[. Earworm .]] - 祝我生日快乐 ,

Zhu Wo Shen Ri Kuai Le - jay chou & landy


我知道伤心不能改变什么
　　那么让我诚实一点
　　诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
　　只有关上了门不必理谁
　　一个人坐在空的包厢里面
　　手机让它休息一夜
　　难,想切割切掉回忆的画面
　　眼泪不能流过十二点
　　生日快乐
　　我对自己说
　　蜡烛点了
　　寂寞亮了
　　生日快乐
　　泪也融了
　　我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
　　还爱你 带一点恨
　　还要时间
　　才能平衡
　　热恋伤痕
　　画面重生
　　祝我生日快乐

- - -

If anyone still listens to this, that is.
It's such an old old song it brings back memories.
I remember the last time I listened to it was years ago in Kbox when the four of us were celebrating Cynthia's birthday.
Back when I knew who I was.
Back when the world still revolved around allowances, school and friends.
The world is such a wrecked place, with so many things happening everywhere.
It's too fast, too sudden, too much.
Decisions I'm yet ready to make, choices i've no choice but to take.

At work, everyone thinks of me as a smiling, hardworking dude who takes it all in.
Stay-in? Sure.
Overtime? No probs.
Go to some faraway place early in the morning? Yeah, I'll do it.

I can totally understand why some people do drugs.

- - -

I know I don't deserve it. So I'm staying away.

Ended really late today, but it was kinda fun.
You know, life is really all about perspectives.
The way you see things shapes the way you feel, which in the end affects how you live your life.
I went to TAB today with an open mind, telling myself to do anything that was required to the best of my abilities and to maintain a positive outlook.
In the end, it all really worked out.
Standing for hours on end on a platform higher than the hangar (some huge empty building) and just staring at the parade trying to SPOT anyone fainting would seem like a darn tiring job, but you just tell yourself you're gonna do it right.
Even at the end of the day when I was really worn out, I was still smiling.

- - -

Ties that bonds people together can be created in an instant, and thereafter made solid by time, trust and understanding.
Today I made a few more friends, whether it's for a fleeting moment or if they're here to stay, i'm still glad to have met them.
They made my trips back home filled with lots of laughter, and somehow making the entire day worth the while.

Ok people might think im exaggerating but that's the truth.
Every friendship, every connection you make with other people accounts for something.
Some friendships need not necessarily come with lots of talking and fun moments.
You might not have much to say to the other party, but in the end you know who to turn to when you need someone to just hang out with you.

My friendship with you? I honestly have no idea which direction it'll head.
For now, I've decided to take it as it comes and see what happens in the future.

Oh and xy, IM NOT "NAGGY AH GONG JIU SHI LE".
IM EXPRESSIVE.

Caught 2012 with my subway buddy today at century square.
It's been so long since I caught a good show.
Somehow or rather, all the shows I've been watching this year has been really crappy;
ohyeah, one of the worst was Jack Neo's "WHERE GOT GHOST?"
Any dialect-idiot like me would not catch any of the humour and would try to make my money worth by smiling dryly at some hokkien joke.
Plus, some of the humourous moments would only be understood provided you watched his previous films.
Maybe fame from his previous films ( which, by the way, are mostly non-original ideas with the exception of I NOT STUPID ) had gotten to his head and his film-making skills have gone downhill since.

Ah, but I digress.
2012 might have a weird ending, but its still quite touching nevertheless.
When the show ended, HX's eyes were swollen. SWOLLEN okay.
Hahaha. To be fair to her, I gotta admit I almost cried as well.. towards the last few moments.
The way they acted made up for the failed script at portraying the world's end.
THEREFORE... It's a show that anyone who has time should go and catch.

- - -

I have this bad habit of procrastination, which I was never able to get rid of.
After the show, I had this really big urge to do something about it.
Imagine dying a procrastinator. -_-
Okay, maybe I shall make it my new year's resolution.
(ah yes, Im procrastinating having this habit of procrastinating kicked. What irony.)

- - -

Dreading the coming week. Gonna be really busy.
Please give me the strength to pull through.

And I've not found my wallet.

Hello all!
I seriously don't know how I spent today.
It just flew by.
Woosh.

Can't wait to catch up with my pals.
Gonna watch 2012 tomorrow. :D
Expect a long post tomorrow night!

Kinda worried about this friend I have who's currently overseas.
Hope all is well!

Hi.
Internet is being shitty again.
I don't know why but I just can't seem to play my games at night.
I just get disconnected so often I don't even feel like logging in.
Maybe it's a hint for me to sleep early. :D
Went Simpang Bedok with my NS pals to eat.
Was quite loser cuz we were supposed to watch 2012 but the friggin cinema was being a bitch and didn't let us share two people to one seat.
C'mon, we're earning them extra money!
Maybe when S'pore starts accepting gays..
I guess I kinda forgot how it's like to just go out like that and have fun.
Once I sort out these things happening ard me then maybe I'll go out like that more often.

Grandpa's out of the hospital already.
Thanks to those who showed care and concern for him whilst he was in, especially Alicia (if you are reading this). :)
Thanks for constantly encouraging me ya.
He looked really energetic and was already cutting fruits n everything.
"I PASSED THE PHYSIO. THOSE GUYS ASKED ME TO MOVE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE SO I DONT GET A RELAPSE."
He really looked like an excited kid while saying that.
Man, sometimes I really forget how old he is.
Guess I'm really blessed this way.

Still couldn't find my wallet, or should I say I really didn't bother trying to find it already.
What's left would be the police report (most likely tomorrow or saturday) and the terminating of my POSB card.
If there's time for a miracle, I hope it happens soon.

The J2 peeps are almost finishing their papers.
All the best, even though its simply an MCQ.
It matters alot okay.

Looking forward to the second half of december.
Gonna start clearing my leave and going out and catching up with some peeps. :D

Ciao.

"Miracles are not contrary to nature, but contrary to what we know about nature." - St. Augustine



I found out that I lost my wallet this morning when I was on my way to TAB.
Kept retracing my steps again and again but I just couldn't be sure where exactly did I lose my wallet.
But.. What the heck. Told myself there's no point worrying about what can't be done, and if I was to find it, I will.
It's day one, and I really hope some nice soul will pick it up and return it to me or at least the police station.
Not gonna report loss yet, just pray hard that it'll come out somehow.
Maybe going to the police station to check it out tomorrow to see if it turned up there.

- - -

OH. And because I'm attending this stupid thing at TAB, I get to wear this bluish techy coverall for the next few times I go over.
YES IT IS DAMN GHEY, but I never thought I could ever get to wear it in my life.
At least now I know how it feels like. Woot.
Hey come on guys, gimme a break.
Gotta learn to be positive about everything you know? Though I know now that there's something uglier than the new No.4 uniform...

- - -

Life in NS is all about wasting your time. Seriously.
You don't do much and then eventually your brain will get too used to it that you'll rot.
Almost a year into NS and I already feel like my IQ has dropped by 50%.
If i were to retake my As now with this intake I prolly would be able to get smth like D E E D.

Bai.


I shall continue to believe, that miracles do happen... And my darling (wallet) will come back.

I finally got down to clearing all my past posts thanks to sharleen volunteering to be my skin coder.
I can code skins too, blogskins.
Im totally clueless about LJ.

Anyway, to all the people who still happen to hang around.. SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT!

- - -

I love long bus trips, be it alone or with a friend.
Sitting on buses allows me to think things through, or observe the people boarding and alighting;
how they interact with each other.
Its amazing how you are able to look into the lives of so many people with just one bus ride.
An old lady, face full of wrinkles, hands full of grocery heading home to cook for her beloved grandchildren...
A businessman, index finger loosening his tie after a hard day of talking to clients after clients.
Half the bus would be sleeping, all with different expressions on their faces; letting us catch a glimpse of what they might be dreaming about.
Nightmares from a little boy's frowning face;
Dreams of her eyecandy as a school student's mouth tilts slightly upwards at the corners, a small hint of red on her cheeks.
You'd notice her phone is still in her hand, flipped open with a text message half typed.

Ok its abit exaggerated but there's really alot of things you can see when you take buses, so don't just plug in your MP3 and start snoozing.

- - -

AND...
Yes I have to do this.
A very big thank you to sharleen for making this possible.